Celebrated Jasper's 17 Birthday yesterday. This lucky fellow's birthday lies on 28 so I decided to make an effort to celebrate for him with a small cupcake. Sang birthday song for him in the public. HAHA






Went to buy with irritating cong and hunt for people to spell muscular for us. HAHA really idiotic!


He looked super duper shy yesterday especially with that dumb spec n pink outfit!


He was cracking his brain over what 3 wishes to make. HAHA






FINALLY!



He was then forced to take out the candle with his mouth:))






Bit without using hands






They look so sweet here:)



HAPPY BIRTHDAY:)

Ok now am going to see a doctor. It's seriously killing me:((

I feel like breaking down now
my body is feeling damn uncomfortable
my emotion is affected
I damn trouble and stress over Econs projects and tomorrow's CSA Excel test.
FML.

we never seems to understand one another but we just love each other's company or maybe it's just me or a form of habit. weird.

I hope you are here with me now.
I want to feel your presence be it just a text, a min of talk, online-chat...
Am feeling bad awful now

Virus attacked me at the wrong time ( Is there is right time to get sick?!)

Damn. Being a patient didn't give u the privilege to rest but rather i have to do more work. Idiotic. Spent my whole afternoon with Cong trying to balance stupid figures with questions created by ourselves. Yet we didn't manage to balance and i have to bring home, locked myself in the room to do trial and error. How stupid is that?!

It has been quite some time since i last became a patient. Damn seriously sick. Tomorrow is going to be a BAD Day with double attack- ECONS and Commiskills Results. Kill me please.

Tell me i will fare well for my CSA project please...God i really have no confident that i will do well for it. Whenever i see what others did and i look at mine, my mind will say " Burn your work Loser!" Seriously it sucks. Despite me editing it for freaking 7 to 8 times and ruining my so-called holiday for this damn project, it still sucks. Totally.
When sch starts, dun give me any spare time to ponder things please. I just want to flood my life with work to feel alive.
P.S Thanks God I have a lovely dream last night. There i feel protected and secured. But here i have to live and depend on my own.

My Mission: Be more independent!

Just say we are SWEET haha...I want US to be like this forever. Yes forever!

Just to update i will be freaking Busy for the next few weeks or even months. Working on final projects, ready for presentations, rushing reports and keeping an eye on my diet for coming Big events. Can't wait seriously! I want to make more Awesome Friends:) Please PLEASE!

But still I will never forgot to slot out my lunch time with my loves. Yes Ling?!

Ohya and not to forget my 2 students..Am going to be busy like MAD COW when sch starts!!!!

That's going to super duper exciting!

Hello Awesome Lovely:)

I had a very relaxing afternoon...Had my branch and then laid on mom's bed with the TV on and i fell alseep..haha i know it's a sinful thing to sleep after meal but am just too tired as i didn't sleep well last night. Forgive me Fat tummy! Sometimes after a busy and hectic month(s), i will slack and waste my afternoon on mom's bed, TV on to MTV Channel, place my Hot lappy dad's pillow and surf the net! It's really a relaxing moment of your own especially when you are alone at home. Love it!

P.s: Prepare for mom's nagging and yelling when she sees her bed in a Mess!

Sorry my loves for my absence for esplanade concert. Sorry for not giving a good n specific reason for my absence but all i can say is i went to a place where i can find peace and myself.

Forgive me lovely lovess.

Anyway, am really thankful I have Awesome friends and loves.

Thank you for being there for me all along.

Thank you so much Bok. It really makes me smile. Actually i didn't help much at that period of time, most of it really depends on your perservance and mind. Sry that i didn't manage to catchup with you during that badminton day, we shall have another one soon ya. Good Luck for your coming exams. Adores:)

Damn it's like Morning now and yet I still can't sleep!!!!!!!! Not that am so busy with work but a million of things are running in my mind now and it doesn't want to rest. Told u I have an idotic brain. Damn.
How to sleep? Am like mad/ sad/disappointed/worried/confused. Geeks am dying.


I:)phone

Hello peeps how's ur day? My so-called holiday is coming to an end soon..damn they should know the real definition of HOLIDAY...am going to miss the Esplanade concert later..no reason ok actually there is but that's not the point..I miss my girlfriends whole loads..miss bao shan's hug, wendy's laughter, Xuanhu's jokes, Daphne's wink, Ivy's sorry...Love u babes:)

Let's off track abit...

I realise one of the most common mistake in relationship is not apprepricating what ur partner has done for you. One day one will get tire of this relationship and that's when the other partner has to do something about it. Don't wait. One day one will feel that they are the only one committed in this relationship and that's when u have to show ur love. Don't wait. Please a hug or a sincere thank you do make a difference.

Am not a pester...I don't cry and beg for your return.

Am not an unreasonable person... I don't talk bad about you. I don't hate you

Am not heartless...i do have feelings but u know i don't reveal them

Am not ur burden...I don't create nonsense, trouble and mess for you to clean up

All i ask for is patience, love and concern.

It's 12:34 but am not smiling. Are you?

I:)phone

Nice food are sinful

Shivering in cold in Changi TCC now. I have been here since 2 plus with my sister and she went back soon after. Had One-For-One lunch with my lovely sister in Swenson in the afternoon and i saw my Awesome Ex-colleagues plus Cool Honey Wardah:)
The Mushroom Pizza is Awesome with lots of cheezes:) but the mussels aren't that good.

Sister ordered salmon salad..eeww rare vegetable!

Followed up by shopping around airport to digest our stomach and then i caused my sister to walk extra miles because i forgot where's TCC. Sorry, I simply have no sense of direction. I ordered Chocolate Raspberry drink. It's thick sweet and awesome!

Am stuck here hours with an aim of completing my damn CSA. I have been redoing it for freaking 4 times. Totally upset my so-called hoilday. All work are piling up and stressing me out. I bet am going to cry my eyes out when i receive my results. Be ready for my emotion posts !

I love my sister alot. She's has been patient and sweet to me though she often irritates me at the wrong time. Am going to be nice and take away a piece of Chocolate cake for her!

Mom bought 2 tubs of Haagen-Dazs ice-cream:)) but my charming bro give me pieces of lucky draw games from Haagen-Dazs instead of the tub!!!
Is he trying to imply 'You are Not going to eat unless you solve these!' :(


So I decided to give it a try but it ends up down here:


Haha did I just throw away my prize?!
Bt who cares;)

I:)phone

She knows how much i love her:)

I tried to harden my heart; better still become heartless but I realise I can't. It's not because I still love but it's I once loved.

I:)phone

Heys love the lack of update is because am trying to fix my life. haha ok my irriting sis is constantly knocking on my door now as i lock myself up in the room wanting to be alone; controlling my emotion and tears. She has been such a pester these few days; i have no idea what change her but i kind of like the way she is and how close we are now.
Is it because of YoU that changes her? If it's really YoU, I thank YoU. Though i still have doubt about YoU, I know YoU do exists around everyone. YoU gives the Earth encouragement and smiles; that's what i really like about YoU. At times, i do believe in YoU but not totally committed. Dun blame me please i hope you understand it's really not easy for me to believe in things because i dun even believe in myself. Whenever i think i can do it, i only end up with disappointment. Am not trying to be pessismisic here but it's true. I work hard, i never let my guards down, i try my best to do everything and but the results are always not what i want. I know we can't always get what we want but i didn't demand for things that aren't mine. I fight for it so shouldn't i have the rights to get the results? I don't blame anyone but myself. Blame myself for doing badly, blame myself for being stupid and a slow learner, being hard for others to love and adore, for being a bad friend, a bad daughter, sister...but am trying hard really hard.
YoU are amazing i know so whenever am at my lowest point, i put my trust on YoU. Trust that YoU will give me strength to pull me through, trust that YoU have your reason for putting me in diffcult position, trust that it's YoU who send those lovely people in my life and bring me smile. I appreciate it i really do and i thank YoU for everything.

Peeps, just know that my life is good. Please just take my words and dun ask further.

I learn that if someone really wants you in his life, they will do something about it. They will bother to fight for you and search for your presence. It's not tough because they know she is worth for them to fight for.
To all my love: Though i can't promise to fix all your problems, i promise that you won't face them alone.

Am still breathing no worries

I:)phone

Before you realise, am gone. Away from your life.

Tell me what happen pls.. you freak me out totally. Your actions, the way you talked, your expression, your frustration, ur ignorance..everything...everything changes...who are you? dun held him pls..get out of his body pls..i want him back..the one i know a few months ago...give me back..
am terrified totally..my hands are constantly shaking now and my tears are rolling uncontrollably...

I:)phone

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Ok let's begin my damn fucking day...u know right?! i have a damn fucking Econs test today and i misinterpreted my formula... Seriously i THOUGHT i know how to use the formula but end up wrong!!!! How can an elastic value ever be -25????? RIDCULOUS right..i know i know bt no matter how much and hard i tried to crack my brain over the formula...I CAN'T!!!!! All math people will know that without FORMULA is equal to failing the paper!!!! You can simply just leave the room bocz u simply can't do ANYTHING without the damn fucking FORMULA!!!!!! I simply easily give away 20marks amd more LIKE THAT!!!!!
Ok fine it's bcoz i misinterupted the formula not that i FORGOT it...I managed to forgive myself alittle alittle bit after complaining, nagging, depressing for freaking 3 hours to Cong. BUT WAIT THIS IS NOT THE END!!!!!!!!
Cong was reading up the ECONS in the library to check his PPF. THEN I REALISE I DREW MY PPF WRONGLY!!!! HOW CAN SOMEONE BE EVER SO FUCKING STUPID TO DRAW A STRAIGHT LINE FOR A PPF!!!!! yes am that stupid damn fucking idotic who draw a damn fucking straight line for my PPF!!!!!! There goes my 10 m...HOW THE HELL DO U EXPECT ME TO PASS MY DAMN FUCKING ECONS LIKE THAT!!!!! IT'S NOT THAT I DIDN'T STUDY!!!! I even studied with Cong yesterday YES THIS IS WHAT I GET IN RETURN!!! HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THAT!!! AND SERIOUSLY WHAT FUCKING HAPPEN TO MY DAMN FUCKING STUPID IDOTIC BRAIN AND BODY IT JUST GOT SO TIRE EASILY LIKE NODOBY'S BUSINESS... Dear Brain: you are small enough and yet you still want to be so stupid..i can just throw you away brainyyyyyyy!!!!
ARGGGGH my best favourite ECONSSSSSSS how can u ever treat me like that:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
I even bother to walk up and down to solve your or rather my problem with you yet u failed me ok is i fail you..can we don't go against each other anymore and stop avoiding me pls econs.. Am going to remember your PPF and ELASTICITIES FOREVER!!!! Let's not fail each other anymore and go for ZZZZZZZZ PLSPLSPLS

Though u make me more depressed after analysing the PPF, thanks for creating a new Q to make me understand about elasticities and tolerating my nag, complain, cry, mourn, depression for the whole day. Bt still NO WEDCAM!