Sometimes you just have to let go the things or people you like

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Mugging time for mid-test this week and then i will say Hello to Harr'y Bar and Timbre:)) Awesome! Can't love it more:) Econs tomorow followed by BA and Damn CSA!!! Studied with Cong just now and i realise he's smarter than me( At times). He always make me laugh like nobody's business. Speaking of that, in the mid of POM test today, he turned back and smiled broadly at me. HAHA totally what the hell right???!!!

Let u see how idotic he can be:

I dun want to go home just now then he started to PESTER me ( that's his expert)

IDOTIC RIGHT!!!!

“Ever have that one person in your life that you just can’t give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, and no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it’s a lie because there’s always just one more waiting for them. the one person you know you’re better off without but yet you can’t find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn’t know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn’t deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it."
Why did u push me away when am trying to give u a hand?!


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It's 3.10am. I wake up and ask myself what am I going to do next. It's blank.
I have never feel so lost and scared before. Everyone seems to be stranger.

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I have messed up my life. Totally.
If u realise, it's has been a month. How fast is that?!
I hope you are doing good; at least be better than me.

Am turning more n more vulnerable. Here I am crying again. Seriously what's wrong with my life??? I have a whole load of things to do and tests are just around the corner. I didn't slack and I have been consistent with my studies and work but why am I still caught in such a situation??! I can't afford to fail any single subject. Worst still I cannot get any grade below C+ yet am struggling with Everything now! Am done seriously. I have enough of all the pressure, expectation, friends. Sooner or later am leaving.


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I know u won't turn back so what's the point

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Sry what u are going to see read next has nothing got to do with these photos as they can do the talking. Am here to pour out Again.

Glad that i just take this opportunity to have a Big random cry at home when my family is away to shop in Malaysia. This is the third time this week. No worried i feel better and more alert after letting out my emotions so just let me be. My life ha been so stress that i realise am affecting people around me. A few days back, one of my group member texted and told me that my over-rated efficient and outstanding process are causing high pressure on her. I have been helping and doing too much in the project that makes her feel negative. I apologised to my group members and fortunately i manage to compromise to their process now. Interested to hear another case? It just happen this afternoon. My K1 student kept making mistake on G and H. No matter how many times i told her to write and say, she was still confused over G, H and N ( h and n do look alike and G maybe hard to pronounice for little kid) So i told her to write repeatly till she remember and suddenly she tears. I was stunned and then my eyes went red. Total Drama. Then i turned to situation around by playing colours with her. Relieved that she smiles. ok i have to bear in mind that Afterall she is just a KID!!! ( i dun even know what the hell was i doing at her age!) I have to deal with another sec 1 student tomorrow morning geeks i forgot some topics. It has been like 2yrs since i last touched Emath.

Let's go back to happy photos.

I doubt i have time in the next few days or weeks so I shall wish my Darling a Happy Awesome 18 Birthday in advance. She knows how much i love her bt Still i want to say again and again I love my Girlfriends whole loadssss.

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Just completed my CSA tutorial homework. The thought of tomorrow's 3Hrs CSA Lab and tutoring after school upset me. How's ur life ppl? My life haven been good at all. It's lack of excitement, enjoyment, Love and Adore. I have been engaging myself with tons of work. This is probably the best and only way to make me feel alive. Somehow i regretted entering Poly as the amount of work is not enough to occupy me. You may think am crazy but yes am a workaholic or rather after since...
Sometimes i just need someone to sit quietly beside me. All i ask for is to feel the presence of someone who cares and loves me for who am and make me feel the importance of my presence. That's all i ask for is it too much?
Seriously love, don't ask anything more than him/her loving and adoring you. One day you will realise this is the most important factor. Without this, you end up losing your partner. Treasure them now.
Though am not okay at all, i hope you are.
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“At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.”


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I bought Sunday Paper and I happens to see this....

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how's life love?! Am a little high n happy today with no reason:) anyway sch work is piling up one by one. Am still stress over POM, Econs and DAMN CSA. Seriously i can take up anything to drop CSA. I have been spending more than 90% of my weekends in front of this screen and i enjoy it alot:) However i was screwed by dad & Mom who have been trying all means and ways to chase me out of the house.
Daddy mummy, I love being home!
School Tomorrow; going to see Irritating Cong & lovely Jenn and all my Beloved Classmates:))
Hopefully i get to see my girlfriends!

Like it or not, I no longer:)

It's amazing to know how much sorrow, tears, fear, stress are hid behind my smile
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Make me cry please.
I need a reason to break down so that things won't turn out too ugly.


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Sometimes we expect more from others because we’d be willing to do that much for them.

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Who do you go to when the only person who can fix you, is the one who broke you?

Despite how long or how well we know each other it's useless...
Becoz our hearts never connect

Thanks for accompanying me till late that day.

Thanks for all the entertainment:)

I just wonder if there are times when u will miss me; hold on to ur phone, hestiating if you should call me; thinking hard for topics or actions to get my attention; wonder if am asleep when u are on bed; pray to see me during ur break; think of me when you passby places where we used to hang out....
If u did these, u will be reading this now.

My life is still the same; continue to flood myself with work. Even if it's not my duty, i will snatch from my friends and carry out thw work for them. Though more often than not I will nag and complain of how busy and tire am, i never stop working and i enjoy doing this( i think). Now am thinking of taking in another student to flood my night or even weekends. Oh btw am hestiating if i should stop going for Squash training as there are really too many people especially when they are combining 2 groups now:/ what about another cca to flood my shedule?! I will give a serious thought about that.
GOsh.. Do u know how much i hate CSA???!!! it's makes me a totally idoitic. I know i can easily ask for help from others but i still stick to my stubborn principle. Damn me. Next is CommiSkills; am seriously super-duper stress over the coming test on Friday. Though we can do reseach, what if question doesn't link with my information? Moreover how do u want me to write 600 words in 1.5 Hrs?????!!! Annnnnnnnndddddd i seriously think i need to get econs Textbook. Damn stupid me.
Enough complains for now, stay tune for the next one. Bye then.

CNN Day:)

It's a tiring but awesome day:)) everything is just so worth it to be with my lovely classmates. We adore each other so much that names are etched on our arms. 1B01:) simply is a Zoo class. You can see all kinds of different ' animals' living together. Despite a big different of personality and characters, we stand by each other and crap like nobody's business. Most of our tutors said that 1B01:)) is a very quiet and shy class; they are simply fooled by our acts. Sometimes it's not that we are quiet, its either we are too lazy to voice out answer or the class is too boring. Once we are dismissed, our true colours revealed. This always happen in CSA and CommiSkills lessons.
When funny, childish, dumb, annoying males in 1B01:)) meets with beautiful, clever, amazing females in 1B01:)), world war 3 occurs.
Love your still and always.

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I have to pull him up no matter what; I can't bear to see him struggling and suffering like how am. I hope am handling this well.
Am moving on. But I will not involve in such affair again. Am tire and sick of it.

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The Happenings last wednesday is still running in my mind clearly. By this time then, we were on phone....
Am so scared especially today because every period will only bring me back to last wednesday. It's uncontrollable. Mind is afterall one of the most powerful thing in this world; i can't do anything to stop thinking. Damn am not going to break down today. NO!
I can only say Life is totally unpredictable. It has been a week; only a week and am _______.
I have to hang on there because this is the only way to make him feel better.

P.s How do i sleep and wake up

I dun know why am stressing myself so much...Am keeping track of all the projects' duedates, checking times and again if my tutorial work are done, questioning myself if i really do understand what am learning....am occupying myself with I-Dun-Know-What things though all the projects' information aren't provided. Am so Tense!!!! I can't relax....I dare not sleep....it's so tiring.... Am so scare of school..not because of my friends( They are really awesome ppl) but myself.
I can't break down anymore; this is my target for today. No No more Tears.

I have tried my best
I can answer to myself with no regrets.
Thanks for Everything &
All the best.