'' Half of me want to be with you but the other half is leaving you''

am freezing my heart.

let go

P.s sometimes i do like how the way we are. sometimes.

My one and only Dearest brother entered BMTC this morning. Finally Tan's family one and only male(excluding my dad) is going to be a Man soon. Love it. Tan's Family went to BMTC with him this early morning. Before that we had Mac Breakfast; it has been years since we last had breakfast together. Miss.
Had a tour around the training place and it's a real eye-opener.Cool for audiences but Fear for trainer.Side-track abit, it makes me think that i have a wide choice:)If u understand what i mean good for you; if you don't sorry i don't feel like doing further elaboration.
Back on track, the training there is extremely tough. They have to spend 6 nights in an isolated place, not allowed to bath, dig deep holes, run and crawl under that freaking burning Sun etc ect...totally what the hell.
If there's such a thing as 'replacement' in NS, dad will definitely opt me to replace my Brother. Actually am willing to do it, no joke.
I miss my Brother.
He is always the one who help me and my sis to cheer and keep our parents accompany.
Now for his absent, I really have to make some amendments to my shedule.
Let some photos do the talking am tire today; didn't sleep last night. This is like the fifth time this year. Damn.

( My Brother in Red!!! what else besides Cool?!)







Good night kor. Love.

Why can't i be her?
Didn't that i want balloon for a long time?
Simple things like this can make me love you more
but u are not doing it.
Fine seriously Fine.



'to find urself back'
Am i tearing apart? because i thought i have been doing well all along.
Doing well;very.

Before I realize, you are gone.
Before I could salvage, things have changed.
Before I fall in love, you have fall out.
I see everything but none belongs to you.
I feel loved but not from you.
I tell myself
it's okay.
I have put in whatever I can
so even if things didn't turn out nice
I won't regret.
Love me for who I am
Hate me for who I'm not
because I still believe
one day one day
I will find someone who
sees the beauty in me
attracts to my character
appreciate my actions
& love me like nobody's business.

I do think; maturely.

It upset me for 2 nights and I guess that's enough; more than enough.
Am not going to dwell the past or worry about the future.
Am just going to live in the present.
Awhile ago I feel like am a total Moron, holding on to u who I thought has been mine. Bt it's not that case.
U are never mine; Am not a moron. We are just doing things together that makes us happy now. For the later, We have to be mature enough to let each other go. By then I will tell myself: am not alone. Am just on my own Again.

am tire of pretending am ok.
what's going on
everything seems so blur
oh it's my tears again

If u realise my love is melting away.
Are you going to save it or leave it

Did I grant u the permission to roll down from my eyes?? Stop u have to stop. Pathetic moron.

Happy Chinese New Year:$$$ on the way to collect red packets nw oh n don't miss out Happy Valentine Day(L)

Am not finding a perfect man; am seeing an imperfect one in a perfect way. Jus is back & he loves my iPhone:)

I have forgotten hw much I hate him. Damn. Am not missing him; my phone is

To Be Loved You Have To Love

I feel like hearing from Nit now:(

There's definitely more Such things waiting for me in the future especially when this isn't a good year for me. Damn. I need to learn to close an eye, shut my ears, take things easy and live my very own life. Am trying hard to place everything back so don't disappoint me.
Nit, now I understand what it means by : Forever is a long long way when one lose its way.
Idling is not the way of life I want. I want to get busy. I want to study. Am not mad; i love to study. Thinking why didn't I choose JC?! I want to play safe. That's risk is not worth taking. Wanting is a thing and Having is another.
I have been thinking what's my next step this month. Taking up a Japanese language is what i hope to do now but i have been hearing things that held my action. What about take up a Job again? no; i dun like that. I need a Family discussion soon.
Jus will be back in 3 more days. For sure he will question what i have been up to for the week he was away. Hmm..telling him that i am addicted to sudoka Again? Surfing net via iphone for at least 3 times per day? Lunch dates? Hunting for One Tree Hill? Being sensative over ____?
I think he is going to kill me but whatever he will be glad that i didn't meet any 'new guys' when he's away.

It's so sad when the person u know turns into the one u knew

Ihopeheisntthereasonthatdriftusapart. Uknowistillloveunomatterwhat. SomehowihatethisFeb;everyoneisleaving. Quekisenteringarmytoday. Damn.

I would rather be Hate for who am than Love for who am not.

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Guys...Mr Justin is away till 10 of Feb!!!

Let's enjoy for the remaining hours when I can hear frm u:)

Updates:)

Had Dinner with Nit @ subway. I didn't drag him there. He insisted on eating subway even when I suggested Japaneses Food beforehand-weird. Anyway, the best part is he agreed to add sweet, crunchy, round Cucumbers in his Tuna sandwich. Nice* Thanks for finishing it despite how much u hate and complain about it. The interesting part is he was surprised that i could finish a Large Size cup of Barley drink. Can i ask it is something surprising? I thought that was a norm. Speaking of that, am craving for Subway Barley Drink NOW. Pleases me with that*

Second destination : Swaroisk. I was looking for Glass Slipper but it was not displaced. We started to argue over the prices and the speciality of each crystal. Whatever*

Next destination: Popular. This is the hilarious incident. He flipped on Primary One revision book and tested me. Oh please Primary one?! But Guess what? some questions we can't solve and have to search for the answer. Try the question below:

If u can't solve, Let's agree on the these:

1. Blame the Questions for not being specific

2. Challenging but Lame

3. Not paying attention during Primary School ( neither did he in Secondary school right? YES)

Want to know the Answer and nothing to do at home?! Grab this book below.

Strongly Recommended*

P.s: I can't ask primary 3 Questions as well when Nit tested me. yah or nay?!

Then We went _____ (always a Fun place to whale time). Ironically after this baby place, we headed to a place related to Sex. Hey but come to think about it now, it's related though baby after sex.

Last my all-time-favourite slacking place. We argued over celebrities. Dumb*

P.s.Nit and I always have different opinions so don't be surprise by the times we argue!

Bye!

Getting together is nt the main point; loving u is