Peeps..am a little high and happy today because after tomorrow 11am am only left with one presentation and there goes my HOLIDAY:))

Last 2 weeks have been a hectic, busy drama, crazy, madness tortue. Serious.

Sorry i dun wish to recall or bring those memories back so Closed case and Forget About It!

Don't ask what happened because no one knows.

Don't ask if anything or something is going on because I don't know and either do I want to know.

It's obvious who really care and be there for me at my lowest point.

It's clear that one should be with someone who trust and makes you happy.

But for your information, nothing matters now.

I just want some peaceful life, no drama, no heartbreak, no complicated issues, no rumors...

I no longer wants to fight for anyone or anything.

If you think am worth fighting for, do it.

If you think am just anyone you can find on the street, leave me alone.

For now, I will only see what you will do for me.

It's ok
It's really ok
It has to be ok
But why aren't you here again
Still, am ok.


I:)phone

Little Love

A Drawing from Bok. He sent me via MMS:))

Cong's note when I stayed in school late

He treated me Mocha coffee as he totally pissed me off due to BA project!

Lastly, BIRD NEST X2 for this week and Chicken Essence specially prepared by my parents

hang on

Am surprise how my body and mind can take this.
I have to hang on there so are you guys:)
It will be over soon...
P.S God, thank you for hearing my prayer today.

Wendy, Xuanhui, Daphne, Baoshan, Ivy, GohYiHui, Jus, Bok, Car, Xinhui,leen, Zilah, Nas, Wardah, Tenghoe, yuxiang, yuliang, mindreader, Ling, Brian, XiaoFang
I M.I.S.S Y.O.U
Takecare ya i will update more!

I:)phone

I have let go.
I stop fighting
Because it's time for others to fight for me.
I:)phone

It's my bad.
I keep pushing away people who really loves me and keeping the ones who don't even clear about their feelings for me.
I was told he was really nice and i see it.
He really makes an effort to cheer me up daily despite my unreasonable anger and frustration.
He bothers to meet me every now and then just to have a closer interaction with me.
He will sit there patiently while am doing my work.
He will observe and listen to whatever crap i have to say.
He is nice
yet i push him away.

Perhaps am going to miss another man who really adores me.
Perhaps i just don't deserve their love.

Closed chapter

You know what i love the most about us?
I love how we used to talk endlessly everyday and crap about anything everything. I love how we used to be comfortable sitting close to one another. I love how we used to warm each others' hands as somehow we always have different body temperature. I miss how we used to complain and console each other when we faced family issues. I miss your morning blur voice in the morning and sleepy musty words in the night. I miss the time when i shut my eyes just to feel your presence over the phone. I adore how relaxed we feel even if it silence between us. I enjoy how we often share the portion of our food and we always have different preference and taste. I miss how we used to fight over stupid and dumb things even if it's none of our business. I love everything you said even if you didn't do what you mentioned. I miss the times when we aimed to break our almost 4 am record. I adore the days when we texted each other after meals especially dinner. I love going your house doing nothing but la on your bed and watch you play games. I love it when no matter how tough, stress or competitive our situation was, we have each others' support and trust.

However, Everything change. The days and times were no longer there. All the situations have turned the opposite way. The people and friends around us change. We have changed.

It's either I love the changes and be happy about it or I walk away and never look back.
I choose the latter.

Mind: I dun give a damn care

Heart: I fucking miss you

I:)phone

Cong this is not an emo post!!!

Hey lovely people:)
How's ur weekend last week? I have a hectic one ok since when am i free during weekend?! For your information, i have not been hanging out for almost a month. I dun know what am busy with but i really have a packed shedule!!! I have to sacifice my weekends to do research and editing my projects. In short: ENDLESS WORK.
Anway after complaining so much, i finally have a fruitful weekends last week.
On Friday i ran an TP event straight after my Econs tutorial. My lesson ended at 4 and i have to report at 4. Cool or what??! It's COOL HAHA. I met alot of Amazing smart-pants people. They did funny things when they were nervous. Haha thinking back makes me laugh now. ok am bad.
Next is PG event on saturday. It's super duper fun!!! haha They are so nice:)) indeed didn't waste my energy for waking up at 7 in the morning depsite late ending on Friday. The events were THUMB-UP!!! Sorry if i provide the wrong information;)


My working-mate:)




Say my T is cool HAHA!
oh Sorry people for rejecting any programmes or hang-out events.
Soory ling for not having lunch with u
Sorry daphne for my absence for the movie
Sorry Sister for not accompanying you to NDP. ( my sis has the tickets haha awesome right?!)
I know there's more but i can't remember anyway sorry ppl!
I finally stepped out of my house yesterday for a great shopping in Malaysia:))
haha I spent more than $100:) Thanks mom

I don't really know what I want at times. I just live everyday like how it goes; cry when I fall, up on my feet and move on again. This cycle just repeats. Perhaps that's life.
P.s I have to control myself from texting or calling you because we know we are not going to go back to the past when the problem of us being like this remains. Perhaps that's me who always drew a clear line to everything. Friends shall behave as friends. I miss you though.
I:)phone

seriously who am i to you?