Indeed, i am.

After a damn fucking pathetic cry.

Time check : After 2am (Just completed the ecareer project)

In less than a day it's time for school. But i have not complete what i am suppose to.I'm tense and stress over the poa competition on thursday! (I'm quite certain that i can't be an accountant unless one day u might see me on the Newspaper saying: Death of An Accountant as she can't 'Balance'!) Times and again,people around me have been commenting that i'm adding too much stress and pressure to myself. Indeed, i am.

I want nothing but the Best and i make sure i put all i could,to achieve what i want.

Count your own blessing.

Had a talk with xf a few weeks ago. She counts me as one of the most Fortunate child she knows. Indeed, i am. I have a great awesome family support. I don't have to worry about money matter, when's the next meal, my parents' relationship ect...All i have to do is to study hard and crave my own future. But u know what? That adds up to my pressure. The least thing i hope is to disappoint my loved ones. Especially when my grandmother and parents have great hope in me. I proud to say that i'm the most obedient child in the family;that's what they think as well. They don't have to worry much about my results, characters, relationship...

-Isn't that great?! U gain ur parents' trusts!!!

Ya Right! They have no worries as i always keep things to myself.(Kids that's not a trick to learn, the big sister here are born like that)

Regardless of studies,friendship,school matters or even 'my love life',i don't share with them. Though at times,i'm desperate of finding a soulmate, i never did.

Studies- They can't help me much and all i could depend is the teachers in school.

Friendship/school matters(teachers' complains abt my flucuating results)

-type it here to vent my anger and save as draft.(thus it's important that i keep my password well)

-observe and make the right choice(hopefully)

'Love life'

-They always have 'my brain washed' and make sure that i find the right one at the right time.

For this factor, i never reveal the truth to them. No matter how much i love that guy, how much i want to keep him as mine, i never voice out either to that guy/my parents. Most/All parents are worried that their kids might be the next victim on the Newspaper(esp the girls~)

Despite how much my parents hope that their children don't get involve into relationship that early,my sister and brother did.

Though i don't have one now, i observe the rights and wrongs from how my sister and brother treat their partners(so that i become a better lover in the future)

* Recently i learn

1.Never quarrel when one is driving!

2.Give him/her some personal time!!

3.Close an eye; forgive and forget!!! (that's the most important and difficult factor)

Woo that's a long post..u are indeed a patient reader:) Well.. u have a better understanding about me now.

P.s: Don't spread this (special note to my sister and the little kid)

Specially thanks to Ling who's cheering me up:)

Tennis!

take it or leave it

Believe it or Not

I have offically Quit all the 'Games'!

I have no idea why i have chosen this path

perhaps for him/the yet to come

But that's not important.

So make way Guys

I'm not going to fool around anymore.

Bye!

Tennis n Night Movie tomorrow..Woo:)

He is Great~

No worries people, i'm still breathing.
Thanks for all the concern n encouragement regards whether it's through email/texts/calls or even a surprise visit..Thanks! ( U know who u are)
Anyway i'm still going through the ups-and-downs...recovering and struggling at the same time.
Nothing but a word-Tough to describe.
Counting down to school reopen...That's the last thing i want to think of...Are u aware that i have a phobia of going to school? Ok now u are aware of it!
When i was in kindergarden,my parents have to drag me to the centre as i refused to go.
During Primary school, i would tears in a corner on the first day/the day before of school reopen. Now in secondary school, i.............. (i'm not going to reveal as it's freaking embarrassing)

Back to the purpose of me posting here....
Today,24/06/2009, is

Mr Goh Yi Hui 's Birthday!!!

He definitely going to remember his 17 Birthday

as i/we pranked him~~~LaLaLaLaLa

Great Planner.Great audiences.Great actor n actress:)

Can i leak a little secret about me n this birthday boy?! (this is a rhetorical Q)

Till then Me n him were friends for 5 years( not a outstanding figure yet).

He plays an important role in my life.

Currently, he is the only one who i always feel comfortable n relax with.

He dares to play along with me.

We hit/push/fight/shout one another on the way home( i always have to jump high to knock his head-don't ask why)

Racing who walk faster is our lamest game.( i always cheat by running- u know why)

He's the first guy who i brought home ( don't get the wrong idea)

My parents,siblings n even relatives know him. Surprising,he click well with them especially with my siblings and nephews/nieces.

He's one who are willing tolerate my nonsense like picking a bone,calling him when i'm crestfallen...he will never bear a grudge no matter how unreasonable i am.

He's simply Great. Adore him to the Maxi.

Happy Birthday my dear GYH:)

Hey public...i'm vex

Bad Day.Bad Feeling.Bad life.

I have no idea what's eating me?!

Mind V.S Body

Body was defeated.

So i went on bed

but the moment i closed my eyes

what appeared in front were

numerous incomplete tasks.

Mind V.S Head

so I struggled on bed for freaking 4 hours

before i got up n took 2 panadols to beat down Head.

Mind V.S Heart

I have no idea who won

but i can tell u that i didn't sleep.

I was looking at the phone

waiting for God-knows-who.

Fortunately/Unfortunately it didn't ring.

I seriously feel like giving up my c.s

It sucks like Hell.

Especially since after a 'talk' with _____.

Struggling.

I have to grab some sleeping pills soon from i-don't-know where

as my house never have such thing.

pardon me

i won't blog till there's some delighted stuff for me to share

as i realise 7/10 posts here were an emotional ones.

So wait for the 3/10 ones.

Sleeping pills please thanks.

Quit!

Everyone must be posting about the Super-Teen Camp stuff.
It was really an Awesome motivation talk which i have ever attended in my 17 life.
I shall not divulge further about the happenings in the camp.

U Know n I Know.

Just want to thanks Ken(the jokes n the constant reminder about the 5% successful people) ,Peter(ur speed reading skills n the number games which i enjoyed alot) n 'a nurse'( what u said to me personally)

Over all,sincerely Thanks for all the efforts u ppl have put in, in supporting us-the Future Leaders:)

This period has been the time when i really have to pull myself up again.

Focus on what i really want.

Besides my determination,guys i really need ur cooperation in stop bugging me 'those questions'.

It's seriously None Of My Business!

I have officially Quit the so-called 'game'. Not because i'm a loser but lately i realise that it's not worth it.Hereby I swear that i'm not going to play his game ever again.Take my Words.

Do whatever u guys want; i see/hear/say No Evil.

I know that i definitely deserve a better game:)

-Thx XF for reminding how good i am/can be.

p/s: I'm going to join ______.

That's it.

On the 31 of May 2009, my parents went to Genting for a short Holiday with a BIG group of my relatives.Yes,31 of May-the day before my O's MT and my 'tutor' abandoned me and flew away...I should have awarded him as the 'Best Tutor' in Singapore.
So,when parents weren't around,the kids went wild and the house would be in a Chaos!
For my case,weird things like.....

First:

My temporary maid/friend 'appeared'

Second:

A puppy was bought in

and shit in my Kitchen

Luckily,i'm not the one who clean up.

By the way, do u know that i dislike( not hate) pets?

Now u know:)

However i'm kind enough to 'play' with it for a short period of time.

Next:

This 2 fellow came to my house.

Ask them how heavy the BIG pooh weights




Then we started going crazy...

p/s: He is having an affair!