Things are getting FAR.......................

Too..............

COMPLICATED

I enjoy chatting with my Mind-reader:)

He knows me and so will i want to know him.

U and I know!

i realise

Time hasn't stop clicking and days have passed before i could realise it.
I thought i have been doing well but it doesn't seems to be that way.
The moment i shut my eyes,millions of Chinese characters appeared.
The moment i got on bed,the mistakes he made unknowingly appeared.

Ms Chua-What's eating you today? U seems to be troubled over something.
What could i say/do besides smiling 'innocently'.
Times n again i have been questioning myself
-haven't i tried my best? Why isn't it showing on my paper? What's exactly went wrong?

Is that fucking history going to happen on me again?!

Times and again i controlled my emotions,isolated myself,broke down...

But things have not changed.

Why haven't u change?How could u just walked away when u know i'm not feeling any good at all?! Why even the strangest people could come and show their love/care towards me but not you? Why can they bother to give me a text/call to ask about my well-being but not you?

Gradually i realise you are not the right one.

(Don't bother to question who)

pressure

What happen?

Is something bothering you?

No matter what

Don't put urself in disadvantage.

i know it's difficult to let go

but life is like that

u can't get the Best in everything.

Make the decision fast as u only have one chance.

i'm happy with what i'm doing now

but the results are not showing.

How?

Should i let go or shld i continue holding tight on it?

Is that the root of the problem?

i'm keep mute n i don't want __to know.

I guess i can handle it myself.

I guess i can balance it.

i guess...

Home

Supposedly No School Day = Outing Day

But yesterday i made a minor/grave(to them) mistake.

I was out for 'celebration' yst after the Mid-year last paper.Then somehow the short-term memory of me forgot/dun want to report to my mum that i will be out 'late'.So i was been forced to at home today to remend my 'mistake'.So lesson learnt:

Report regardless you like it or not

Motive:

You can go out the next day!

Mummy have been nagging about my coming MT and it's getting on my nerves!

Guess what?! She 'hire' me a Chinese 'tutor'!!! That person is no other than my

DADDY!

-I will help ur hopeless Chinese to A1 if not A2 or B3 then B4 worst come to worst a Pass.

Yes that's my dad:)

2 couples at my house have been fighting recently.(my sis n her bf/my bro n her gf)

As for me....i'm still enjoying in the flirting state.

Wonder how am i going to spend the rest of the day at HOME

find a target to flirt?

Get off(i'm kind enough not to use the F word here;)

2009 BangKok Trip;)

Guys u shld eat this more as it seems to have the effective of making ur 'sperms' stronger!

Found this interesting light in the taxi;)

It's time to Snack!!!

It's Time to Snap;)

Run Faster

Feeling abit depressed...abit lost...i know i have to do something about it but here i am still idling around-Sigh!
Control* i'm not going to let this be an emo post;)
Surprising i went for a run at 8 this morning despite the fact that i had a late night yesterday/Today(if u know what i mean). Don't have to clap for me as i only ran 3 rounds..But it's better than Nothing..so Go ahead and clap if u want.

1 round-all right;) 2 round-Great:) 3 round-torturing!

While i was 'running' at the third round, a guy who was also a jogger, ran by me and said

Run Faster!

I was like

HuH?!

So Funny. Anyway whoever u are thanks for ur encouragement.That's what i need the most now not the other way round.
Yesterday's party was pretty fun.. like finally i managed to have a catch up with them.
Had some French Wine-simply nice i should say.It's not very strong as it easily slipped through ur throat n ur body will start to get HOT/Warm.
Damn It- had a sneeze just now..HATE to sneeze..Not that i'm superstitious but it has times n again proven to me that when u sneeze=someone is badmouthing behind your back.

Shut Up!!!

Arhhh...i'm Insane Mad Crazy whatever u name it.

All right CONTROL..there's a grand celebration for my Brother's 18 Birthday Today...

I Want To ENJOY u heard me?!

I'm have been trying to upload all photos but the system is going real slow and i don't have the patient to wait so i will edit the previous post to upload more photos soon;)
Mid-year is coming to an end soon-like finally?!
Frankly speaking this was the worst examination i have ever prepared. Everything was half-read n half-studied. So predicated that my results will be cut into half as well. BullShit!
Ohhh~~~have 3 Birthday Parties to be mad in so i guess that will round up my 2009 May-Exams, BangKok, Parties!!!
SHUT UP don't remind me about the coming MT O levels paper.

Thanks to ur blessing i'm back safe and sound:)

I will update my trip in Bangkok soon but for now i'm requesting in public for a Full collection of....

THIS

I'm soooo going to Miss

His Art Piece is here! He drew this on my paper during SS/Poa lesson?!
Saw my name there?! All right actually there's a name indicated on the top of male character but i deliberately hid it. Currently only 3 people saw it so no point asking around who play the male cartoon role.I trust that u are not going to say anything,Right?!
No worries i will keep the paper for memories sake n probably i will announce the name when things are going the right path-No promise;)

All right come to the serious part:
In about 9hr plus i will be leaving Singapore..Shock?!
I'm travelling to Bangkok tomorrow n retuning on Monday.I didn't want to mention any earlier as i'm afraid there maybe sudden changes due to incidents happening recently-Swine Flu n protests in Thailand.
I'm feeling so bad now.
Many teachers do not encourage me to travel now as my mid-year are still in process. Moreover the incident today made me hesitate if i seriously can to go. Something unpleasant happened today.Something which made me almost broke down.On my bus-ride home,i did my reflection. I shouldn't blame them on saying those as the problem lies on me. If i could be smarter such situation will not happen. Instead of having a grudge against them, i'm glad that they are honest.Although it did demoralise me somehow but i know i need to move on-faster n smarter.

Time will not stop there for me.

Though i will just be away for 3 days,i want to leave a lovely message for my darlingsss.

Wendy,Baoshan,Eileen,Justin,Ivy,XuanHui,Fang,Daphne,Yihui,Mindreader(surprise that ur name are here?!), n................You Yes You!
-I'm soo going to miss u children.Seriously Miss.If u guys didn't see me in the examination hall on Tuesday then u guys should know what happen.TouchWood! Love u children:)

For the special one*
Thanks for being patient with me.
Ur words are simply my motivation.
Ur sight are simply a sign of peace to me.
Hey irritating one dun get too happy when u see this.
Bcoz i'm not going to miss u.I doubt u will miss me in the first place.
Hate!

It's No School Day-Labour Day!

This lady here is slacking at home now with no intention to hang out dun to the Hot weather!
Love to relax at home in the air-conditioned room tying nonsense.
But am i going to 'waste' my precious holiday like this???
Hmm..not yet..i'm waiting for my phone to ring which will say 'One New Message'! Hopefully that will indicate where i'm heading;)
By the way i really feel like joining the Night Cycling.
It's on 15-16May from 9pm to 8am.$10 fee with Free bicycle/helmet rental,drinks n snacks are provided.
We will be able to cycle from East Coast Park to Marine Barrage n back to Tampines!
Didn't it sounds Cool to cycle the whole night n waiting for the warm Sun to shine before you??!!!
I know Mid-year is still taking place but daddy mummy can i go?PLS!
All right i know i'm not a good persuader-Fine!
So did my phone ring?