I have been spending time with family recently, helping in house, watching ALOT of movies and being sweet and lovely daughter and sister(haha). Yet Am not feeling good right now, at this very moment. I really have the urge to step out of this comfort zone. Geeks am above 18 this year, but I have really no idea what am suppose to do or have to do. I dont want and detest to stay within the people who will protect me all the time. I want to explore, get hurt, learn my lesson.
Am feeling so bad now. Dad and mom always think am smart and can always achieve the top. At first I believe then I realise am really not that good. When I first saw my results, am satisfied and called dad immediately. However, am feeling all guilty, bad, lousy, awful and disgusted when mentioning my results!!! If am scoring 4As, others will be scoring all As. If am the top, others will be receiving scholarship. You know how bad it feels to be not good enough? when u are losing all the confidence? when everyone is looking upon u to achieve?
whatever. Bye.
oh never forget; Love you.
Love,
girfriend
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