Away for a Battle.

God, can you hear my inner cry
God, can you see my bleeding heart
God, can you feel my trembling hands
God, i need you now.

For a long time and for the first time

i have to admit

am scare. Very.

But whatever it is,

am just going to get over and done with it!

So miss and pray hard for me.

Loves.

Time check: 3.30 am and am suffering form insomnia.Dumb!

8 Days to Practical.

No time for wordy post let me just get straight to the point.

A picture speaks a thousand word.

Thanks Darling:)

Specially thanks to Wenrong for your encouragement. Miss you.

23 days to his Big Day. Work hard Rest well Eat well Sleep Well. I believe in you. Loves

if you said that am doing well, you are obviously lying.

Damn. First i have to apology for my sudden broke down during V.p talk yst afternoon. I tried to control really i tried but it was futile. The tears just dropped down continously. I'm seriously sorry but can i cry again? just once.let me release everything out and i will be fine later.
p/s: can i call you?
nonono i can't. look at the time idotic. who do u think you are?! solve Your problem yourself you have to be independent!

Am sorry for my short-temper recently and i can't promise that i will change due to the tremendous pressure am facing now;be it from my friends, teachers or even from your.
I have been 17 years of your daughter and definitely nothing could change this except the increasing number. So by now,ur should understand who i really am than anyone else. Unfortunately, ur don't seems to understand especially my way of studying and my progess. Honestly, ur can simply ignore me till my O's is over and i think that is the Best solution as i can be alone and i will study-ur know. I sincerely seek for your understandings. Loves.

Prelims results was back. It sucks serious. It just didn't meet my expectation as usual it never did. I have no idea how long i can hang on but am struggling with everything especially science. Am just deadly dreaded of SCIENCE since primary school. Chemical? Not a fun at all and it's hunting me down!

Luck is the name of the Game of Life.

Had a bad time recently. As much as i hope we are friends, i doubt so. I don't want to take the risk of falling in the trap. i just want to be safe and sound for the 'remaining days'. Fortunately or unfortunately what she said did come across my mind. What a wrong move.

No point saving it when it was dead long ago.

p/s: who can i turn to?!

Time

Time check: 8 plus in the morning.
I have been surfing the net for the past an hour and so. I have no idea why i woke up so early but i just don't get to sleep well for the whole night:/
There's dozen of says in my heart but i choose to keep mute.Somethings are just not meant to be voice out.
It was not the first time neither was it the second. ya it was the third time. But i feel rather different this time, which most probably is the last time. I have learnt not to jump to the conclusion and let nature take its course. For this third and last time, i want to keep it as private. Private.
Alright let's keep that aside and move on to the next topic.
Grandmother's 80 Birthday celebration was great. Everything will be Awesome with her around.
Pardon me i don't want to get details into that. The sad thing is everytime i leave her, a question will always pop into my mind-will this be the last time? Whatever it is, Let me escape from reality.

I seek the God(s) for forgiveness three days ago. I made a promise. I want to see the beauty of others and divert their weakness away.

Now what?

In a few more hours time, am leaving Singapore to our nearest neighbouring country.
It's definitely going to be a enjoyable short trip as i miss them SO MUCH. Foremost, i can finally see the most important person in my life-My Grandmother! Happy to the Maxi:)

Prelims have not ended and O's has not even start but i seems to have slacken. I screwed up my Geo, Amath paper 2 (as usual He make me tears):, Poa paper 1 (simply don't understand the theory and i don't want to know either).

Miss all my girlfriends-It's time to catch up for lunch!

P/s: am a Love and Hate girl:)