Satisfication comes after meeting my own exacting standard

Its only the start of 2 days of sch and am dying.
Seriously. This is so going to be a depressing and wordy post so just close this window. Ty.

Saw my classmates for commskills yst. Its kinda of okay.
A few potential people but I dont know why I just dont like.
There seems to be a barrier whenever I meet with new classmates.
Maybe am so getting used with my Year 1 loves though after nearly a yr?!
I really miss working and having fun time with them.
No pressure and fear.
Most of them are having their own problems now. haiz.
Jenny's classmates are pretty much worst.
Congy is stress and he already had group meeting tmr. wtf.
Von has class from 9-9 on tuesday.
The rest are mostly stress over coming piles of work and classmates who cant get along with.
Darling also very depress esp when his best team partner-Clar Chua isnt same class as him.
He complains he nearly has any friends in his elective. Though I have a few familiar faces in my class,
I really just cant bring myself to them. But well, commskills is PBL (WTF), FOI has projects and am in HR elective so for sure I need groupmates.
I guess am really too stress and putting too much pressure on myself as I keep emphasising and reminding myself that I must really score this sem to offset my bad grades last sem.
There's no room for mistake and risk.
I force myself not to use my phone during lecture except am with a boring and nagging lecturer like my Intro. to counseling lectuer who is my tutor too. Otherwise, iphone is in my bag!!
I have to admit last sem I really let my guards down.
I ignored my doubts and ran to look for dear after all tutorials.
Its entirely my fault.
Now I have to repent and be disciplined.
omg stress.
Quiz every week for counseling and it consists of 40% project.
FOI is a hard subject bcoz am competing with Banking&Finance students and it has a hardcore 20% project.
I hate commskills and my tutor happens to be my year 1 CP. I didnt give her a good impression bcoz I forgot my year1 commskills tutor name. wtf.
so much things in life that i can complain about.
I can cry, nag to dear over it but I choose not to.
I can take this.
Its only 7 freaking weeks.
I can do it.
SUCK IT UP.

It is highly unnatural to push aside your urges of attraction, indulgence and selfishness.

Introduction to counseling.

My future is a blur.
I sense nothing right.
Fear has chases me to a corner.
I need courage and lies.
I will be okay.
I will be fine.
Am good with myself.
I can do it.

Only For you babe

Finally got to celebrate My BFF 20th birthday!!!

Happy Happy!!

This love of mine is so busy and hard to book..

despite hardwork we manage to give her a big surprise belated bday celebration

and pretend its a class gathering!!

haha!!

she's very extremely shocked that she doesn't knwo what wish to make

when the cake is presented to her!!

I love how funny she is!!

forever.

*wait wait.. I dont know what wish to make*

HAHA

finally!!

haha dont know what wish she make this time.

She told me she made a wish for one of her bday celebration

which is for all her best friends to be happy.

How sweet<3<3

If am a guy I will really fall for her!!

so pretty!!

scream for ice cream cake!!!

we are given a big and long knife to cut the cake..

so funny!!

and I was named a murder for helping to cut the cake:/

Next we went to KTV which I booked in advance.

Became a member there though I dont sing:/

no choice hahaha!!

stupid smart ass congy

<3 <3

Thank you for being there for me through out my hard times

esp poly year 1.

I love our crap and nonsense at all times.

they are my favourite memories in ploy life.

you people are the ones who make me stronger.

shit family is love<3

Thank you<3

Take a step back

I know I know... my blog is full of my love life

but what to do... it's just something exciting that I wanna to share

as what they say

SPREAD THE LOVE<3

5 days ago was our 11th mth anniversity.

we dont celebrate every mth haha so dont gossip

it just happens it's a holiday so we took some time out together<3

the day before dear and I talked on phone and he said he had a surprise for me.

I was like "Oh shit!! is my surprise for him the same?!!!"

so we gave each other clues.

His clue was "see, touch, SMELL"

Mine was "see, EAT, HEAR"

eggcitied went to bed !!

The next day, I was putting on my facial etc after shower then theres calling my name.

I thought its a door to door promoter

little did i realise dear send someone to deliver me a bouquet of roses

<3<3<3

Bet darling spend at least $60 on these

aww<3

My surprise for Love is premium movie suit for

real steel!!!!

Scream!!!

So sad we will slightly late so didn't get to enjoy at the lounge:(:(

REAL STEEL IS AWESOME!!!

though i thought it will move me to tears coz everyone said its good.
And other then will smith and justin timberlake and Justin kho, another fav of mine:

Dinne rat Fish&Co @ crystal house<3

Thumbs Up:

am gg to dry the roses and put them to good use<3

Next 9 cot, I have free tockted from my aunt to The LION KING!!!

how awesome!!
So i invited dear along with memy niece and sis friend

copy and paste face:

I <3 The Lion King!!!

Catch it before its gone!!!

Busy woth event job for last 3 days and I learnt:

<3

am a prawn lover!!!

HELLO EVERYBODY!!!!

AM back with awesome local food into by love<3

Darling and his family fav place:

claypot rice @ gelyang!

I guess this is the first time I took mrt to gelyang?!!

Always wanted to go gelyang to eat durian with love and garret

but garret, the superman find it too dangerous.

HAHA IKR

we might use the below information soon right dear?!
as mentioned earlier love's parents always went there to eat
so the aunt kinda of know him and we got well treated:)

the uncle who helped to service pose there for me to take pic;)

we chose to add more sauce coz i dont like white rice!

If only brown claypot rice is created?!

haha but darling won't eat still!

we had the 4 persons servings and the aunt kinda of stopped us coz

she is afraid we cant finish

but hello... is WE.. so sure can finish right love;)

love's fav:

and i love this so much:

the prawn is like super duper big!!!!

satisfied meal with a smile!!!

despite super duper full like ttm...

we still went for dessert!!!

so sinful

<3 soya bead ttm

Not long back, darling came my house and picked me up for luxurious branch!!!

THE BIG PRAWN NOODLES!!!

lunch hours is like super crowded!!

cant ask for more

<3<3<3

yst finally met up with the guys:

yuxiang, duncan, tenghoe

for badminton and dinner!!

TH is fucking funny!!!

and when darling and I chilled out at mac cafe...

guess who we saw!!!!!

L.X.F!!!

haha she is studying there for her coming A's.

jia you jia you jia you<3<3<3

LION KING WITH LOVESS TMR!!!!

IKR THE TICKET IS DAMN X!!!

AND AM SO LOVING IT!!
CANIT WAIT!!

till then<2